In a dwelling, electricity and water are installed before we move in. Similarly in this dwelling or Udal, the breath or Uyir is given to light up and move all the appliances within it. The Soul or Atma then comes to stay. If the former dwelling is either made of straw, sticks, or bricks, the latter is a pretty complex combination and proportion of gross and subtle elements known as Tatwas numbering 96 in numbers.
The (Jeeva)Atma that was once with the (Para)Atma, takes abode in the womb of a mother. The Atma that is with us at birth accompanies us for some time at the beginning of our journey. The Atma that was with us initially is soon veiled from us for reasons that Agathiyar is not disclosing at this present moment. But we figured out that it was because we had to pay our dues to the laws of Karma. It was to allow the process of karma to work in each individual. It is the period of payback and settling the scores, making right the wrongs, atoning for past mistakes, forgiving others, and asking to be forgiven, a period where all our karma takes the form of sufferings, illness, misery, misfortunes, etc, and also equally where we are rewarded for all the kindness, charity, love, loyalty, devotion, etc and all our wishes and desires from the past take shape and form. The Atma stands back and veils itself, never intending to interfere with the natural law but to let the process go on and the individuals experience and learn from these experiences. During this time the Atma is bound and its hands tied. The law of cause and effect has to be fulfilled.
When we are caught in the grips of Maya or illusion in this world we never realize the existence of the Atma. The Atma comes as either an external guru to awaken us from our slumber or awakens within us, ridding Maya completely. By engaging in Aram or in doing charity we offset karma. Tavam or performing austerities brings the grace of the Atma to draw the veils aside. When the ego, desire, and attachment are surrendered we are freed completely. Then we come to know the purpose of our birth. When I asked Agathiyar what was mine he asked me to go within and traverse the many levels or layers and stages or states as if going on an internal pilgrimage. It shall be revealed he said.
When we become enlightened only then do we realize its existence or rather the Atma awakens to enlighten us. When the (Jeeva)Atma that went into self-exile, when the ego took over our lives awakens, and it gains the strength to make a comeback, and tears down the veils of ignorance, we have gained Atma Balam or Soul Power to move things. That is the moment of Atma Darisanam. We are one with the Prapanjam not dependent on it but working in liaison with it. The Atma in us that is a part of the (Param)Atma then regains its throne and takes its place once again as the inner guru. It shows the way to attain Gnanam.
Agathiyar revealed that contrary to common understanding, the Atma does not carry the imprints of karma. He revealed that the Atma helps clear our karma by showing us the way. Once karma is cleared the search to know the Atma intensifies. His search for worldly gains loses its intensity. His seeking would be solely on knowing the Atma (Agathiyar) and reaching him.
ஆன்மா உனது கர்ம வினை தாங்கி வருவது அல்ல, ஆனால் ஆன்மாவே உனது கர்ம வினையைச் சரிசெய்வதற்கு உதவி புரியும். கர்மவை சரி செய்த பின், ஆன்மாவின் தேடல் அதிகமாகி மனிதனின் அன்றாட தேடல் தீர்ந்து போகும். அவன் தேடல் முழுதாய் என்னையே தேடி வர முயற்சி செய்யும்.
Among God's creations, only man can know his Atma and reach out to it. The Atma is separated after a period of co-existence, and veiled from us for the rest of our lives for most of us. The Saints rediscover it though. Once our actions deserve a reprieve the Atma draws the veil and shows itself. Once the debt is settled the Atma draws the veil aside to show itself. This is Atma Darisanam. This can happen during deep meditation where the very heat of our Tapas burns our karma to ashes or at the pilgrimage and sacred spots that we head to battering the cold weather, heat, sun, and rain, and the difficulties accounted. If we recognize it, the Atma comes to stay forever henceforth. The Atma now lends a hand in settling the past account and debts. Once the debt is settled, we are given refuge. The Atma helps us rid the remaining karma through Tavam, austerities, and Aram or acts of charity. It then points out the path back to our real and permanent abode or "home". It brings us to a guru or the guru arrives promptly. As in ஆட்கொள்ளல் the Atma comes to regain its right over us and brings on the memory of our connection with it/Agathiyan/Erai/God/Param. The Atma shall help him recall his past ventures and bring forth these experiences. The one whose Atma awakens in him comes in search of the Siddhas. The Siddha shall usher, guide, and care for him henceforth.
அவனுக்கு அந்த ஆன்ம அவனுடைய முன் ஜென்ம அனுபவங்களை அவனுக்குத் தூண்டிவிடும். தீண்டல் பெற்றவன் சித்தனை நாடி வந்து விடுவான். சித்தனும் உங்களைக் கவனித்து வருவார்கள்.
It is only when we surrender the "I" that the Atma returns to reign. Its reign of course would be in line with the divine as opposed to that of the "I" that exercises its superiority. When the Atma comes back to regain control of the Udal and Uyir it brings on massive transformation within the body often without our input and brings on the whole of Prapanjam within too. Agathiyar tells us that the power of the Prapanjam is limitless. இந்தப் பிரபஞ்ச சக்தி எண்ணில் அடங்காதவை. We understand the state of Agathiyar now when he says that the Prapanjam is in him and he is in the Prapanjam. Just before he left AVM he brought down the full force of the Prapanjam to take his place. He left for another dwelling where the devotees carry on the rituals for his bronze statue something that me and my family had done since 2010.
The rituals we did bridged us to their worlds. Agathiyar entered our dwelling and home whenever he passed by over home on his way to Pothigai, Kailash, or Kallar. Agathiyar at one stage had told us that he would tackle the "hardcore" souls whom he brought to Agathiyar Vanam Malaysia (AVM) and bring clarity within them. After 2018, he began to use our place to meditate hence naming it Agathiyar Tapovanam Malaysia (ATM). When he came to disperse Gnanam, he named the place Gnana Kottam.
My dwelling has seen a facelift recently that he had initiated. Similarly, he reiterated that subtle changes were taking place within too in the Jeeva Nadi reading read for us by Mataji during her visit to AVM over the weekend. Later Lord Murugan coming through a devotee during puja for Agathiyar in his new home briefly touched on these changes too. Lord Murugan had told the host at Agathiyar's new home earlier through a Nadi reading in 2018, that their home was akin to Tiruvannamalai and was a place where karma would be vanguish for those who enter their home. The Siddhas are using all avenues available to awaken our souls towards gaining soul power to beat the odds, bring changes to our viewpoints, perspectives, and understanding, and renew and recharge us to carry out their work here. In my eagerness to haul everyone on board the wagon heading for Gnanam, Lord Murugan put a stop and halt explaining who should board and who was not ready by giving a discourse on Gnanam a couple of days ago. If in the heydays of AVM, I had aspired to bring everyone along to walk the path of the Siddhas, Agathiyar had me bring the shutters down on AVM in 2019 sending others to carry out their responsibilities first and return later. As for me, he had me go within. He told me to move on and not wait for others as my journey would then stall. I was already 60 then. Time was running out for me. When I told Lord Murugan that we would need a long life to accommodate all these changes அதற்கு நீண்ட ஆயுளும் வேண்டுமே, he replied that that is the reason we are reborn again and again, அதற்காகத்தான் மனிதர்களுக்கு அத்தனை பிறவிகள். I guess I would have to come back to continue from where I left just as Tavayogi said too.